I’ve had this weird shift recently that has required an adjustment of attitude. I’m used to thinking of myself as being at the bottom of the hierarchy, as someone who doesn’t give instruction, but receives instruction.
As some of you know, I used to vlog about books on a youtube channel. It was 2014, and I was energized by a new years resolution to vlog twice a week. So I started filming on my computers webcam and editing in Windows Movie Maker. Flash forward two months, and my hard drive is fried and I’m left with a warning that my computer wasn’t able to process that kind of work, and that I needed a more powerful computer to achieve my dreams of YouTube stardom.
I’ve talked before about how trying to be the best version of myself was burning me out, and this is still accurate. Having an overwhelming list of things to do everyday to be the “best” is a great way to become disenchanted with self improvement. But birthdays can be a great way to start anew.
It’s my birthday, so let’s look back on some of the things I learned when I was 24.
I haven’t been writing.
I haven’t been reading.
I haven’t been…doing anything, really.
Over the last two months, I have been trying to keep up with my New Years Resolutions while juggling jobs, friendships, my relationship and my life. I have spent the last two years reading self help memoirs about women working towards the best version of themselves. And after two months, I am ready to throw in the towel.
2017 brought out some of the trends of 2016 into full force, and also pushed me to see some of the glaring flaws in all of this. I am always willing to try things, but I have tried these things, and they have got to go. This list also includes some things that I feel like I have been doing wrong. So here are five general things I am leaving in 2017:
This year feels like it just started. Like I got swept up so fast, and I can’t believe it’s over. So here is my year in review, for posterity sake.
I make a lot of promises to myself, but this year, I have 24 things I want to do that are long term projects. Some of these things will require personal time and labor, but I only have this one life (I say this, even though I believe in reincarnation…moving on). So here are 24 things I want to accomplish before I turn 25.
Today is my birthday, and I am turning 24 today. Twenty-three has been a long year, and after a year of career setbacks and steps forward and lots of driving, I am ready for my own little birthday traditions to start off a new year.